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I'm back to blogging after so long...
Lots of stuff happen,and I realized that even if I were to pass away, it'll hurt my parents more.

I quit the job at orchard and found a new job at airport,been working for going 2 months already. Working at airport make me think even more, like why must I keep holding onto those bad stuff that happen during my young time? It's time for me to grow up & definitely change into someone better all the time!

My probation coming to an end, I was really happy and I don't wanna create any more trouble because I don't want to squat, I mean it. I do fear squatting inside,really... 12 nov, that's the day where by my probation end but it fall on sat.. So I got to actually wait till 14 nov.. Though it's only 10 more days,I swear this period wasn't good! I'm like suffering for a year,escaping from those law stuff, stop contacting with my school mates and stuff because I want my past to end with a dot as my probation end.. I'm a young adult already,I can't possibly always thinking that whatever I do I get my parents attention..

Dear mum and dad, sorry for being a bad child the moment I was being born to this world.. I still rmb on 2nov when I visited dad, he actually tell me that, I can sense that you're changing because I feel those good luck and stuff.. I really wonder, it's been so long why can't he just face the fact that it isn't me whom cause the trouble in the family? If really I'm a jinx, don't bring me go operation,don't teach me anything as easy as that.. Thinking of letting go my pastnwas actually worst than being fuck! I'm trying to forgive him,but every action he do, I can't take it.. All I hope was he to accept the fact of who I'm & not always telling me bout the fortune teller stuff before i was born. Everything happen for a resin,if she's so good, did she ever know why she became like this? I'm not against anything daddy,I just want you to know, I'm trying to forgive you because you're my dad, this grudge been with me for 13-14 years.. I'm still a child after all,even if one day I were to grow old, I'm still a child that doesn't have a good past..
I'm sorry mum..


Dear father of the holy spirits,
I'm here to tell you my sin.. I won't hope for you to forgive me 100% because I know karma bites.. But I'm gonna pour all my sins to you through my heart, I know you feel it,hear it.. Lord,thank you,really.
I love you
Amen!